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♥ I’m so damn pissed off

My day started out fine. Lovely actually. Finally talked to my crush and told him I like him…it went something like this

Me: I like you…thought that I should just let you know…byes!
Him: I like you too. Byes!

I stared at what he just wrote.

Me:…
Me: are you serious?
Him: Yeah. Is there something wrong?

Now…does he like me like me or does he just like me as in friends that sort of like?
I’m seriously confused about it.

Anywayz, my friend was told to apologize to the teacher and they will take it as nothing had happen. Awesome right??

Of course it is. Then…comes the pissing part.

I got home, tired and all, sat down in front of my com and started to play Maple Story. My maple boyfriend…yes. It’s the guy who treated me to sushi and movie was being bloody annoying.

He keeps saying that I’m cold towards him, avoiding him and all hat shit when I’m not!! Ok…so the cold part is partly true because I sometimes need time to myself and was being a pain in the ass by coming up to me all the time, sticking like glue to me and all that crap.

All I did was just to avoid answering some questions and all and PROOF!!

HE MADE A BIG FUSS OUT OF NOTHING!!!!

At least to me it was nothing.

So…as I’m blogging right now, I received a message from him saying that he is tired and all and he wish that I could change like I said I would yesterday. (I was feeling bad about what I did so I told him that I would not be cold to him but sadly, today, I am in one of my mood swings so yeah)

That was it. I’m bloody ass pissed off right now. SHEESE!!

WHAT IS WRONG WITH HAVING A LITTLE TIME TO YOURSELF?!?!

I DON’T THINK I DID ANYTHING WRONG BY NOT SAYING “Hi dar” TO HIM!! I mean like I did say “ellos” and added a smiley face beside it…yesterday I was like “hi” and then no more.

I TRIED!! OK!! I TRIED BUT HE HAS TO COME AND THINK THAT HE IS THE CENTER OF MY EVERY FUCKING THING.
WHERE THE HELL IS THE SPACE AND TIME I DESERVE??

OMG!!!

AAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

Exams are round the corner and my fnn is like…crap. Which reminds me. YESTERDAY!!! OMFG. He had to come and talk to me on msn when I’m trying to finish up my research. I got annoyed so I appeared offline and about 11pm plus, he message me. “You so busy? Or you just don’t want to reply me.. =(“

I was like WTF?? HERE I AM, PULLING MY HAIR OUT TRYING TO FIGURE OUT MY TEACHER’S DOCTOR HANDWRITTING SO I CAN EDIT IT AND SUMMIT IT AND THERE HE IS, THINKING THAT I’M AVOIDING HIM AGAIN!!!

Seriously, what the hell is wrong with him?

♥ Long post~~

I’m weird today…I really am.

I’ve been thinking about weird stuff this morning like “Do ants exist in houses in America?”

I really had to find that out because me, being a Singaporean has been seeing ants in my house and because it’s a tropical island, ants are bound to exist but in America…it’s cold and when it’s cold, you don’t have bugs.

So, I asked *ahem* and he said yes. In his front yard. So yeah…

Anywayz, on to school. Highlight of the day; MY FRIEND SHOUTED AT THE TEACHER!!!

-insert loud gasps here-

It went like this. It was after recess and my friend left her book in the canteen so she asked the Chinese teacher if she could go down and take her book.

The teacher misunderstood her and before I continue, you should take note that 1, she is a Chinese teacher. 2, she is a TRADITIONAL OLD FASHION type of Chinese teacher meaning she CANNOT understand English very well. 3, my friend isn’t good in her Chinese so she asked in English.

On to the story. The teacher misunderstood her and since some students just walk out of the class after telling…NOT ASKING but TELLING the teacher that they had to go toilet or whatsoever, my teacher THOUGHT that she was telling her.

The teacher got pissed off. Said something like go lor. You are telling me. Not asking me and all that shit.

My friend tried to explain but the teacher cut her off and the teacher, started to speak in ENGLISH!!

I can barely understand a thing. Permission became permson and some other load of crap. My friend, after getting cut of a hundred times or so, got pissed off and shouted at the teacher.

And you get the whole thing…shouting here, shouting there until another classmate called my friend to just go down…and the way out, my friend turned around and said “You’re hopeless to the teacher” and when she was outside class, she shouted “Bitch”

My sitting partner turned to me and said “This doesn’t make sense” and the teacher heard her. SHE MISUNDERTOOD AGAIN!!

I swear, I could have just jumped off a building.

The teacher was like “Are you saying that what I told her doesn’t make sense??”

We were like “No…what we meant was when she said you were hopeless, it doesn’t make sense”

The teacher still didn’t get it.

Another friend turned around and said “She doesn’t get it.” Another one added “Let’s just do the test paper” and that was what we did.

One and a half periods later, my friend came up to class and obviously, the teacher called her back and asked one of the better in Chinese girl to translate what my friend was saying.

Since our Chinese class consists of two different classes, we went back to our own class for physics lesson…

After a while, shouting was heard. Yup, they started quarrelling again and my physics teacher went over to check what was happening and all.

Anywayz, after school, me and two other friends went over to her class and asked about what happened and all.

There might be a chance that she gets suspension but if she really gets suspended, my friend if going to write in. Come on, it’s our last year in school and to top it all, we have your GCE “O” Levels so there is NO WAY she can get suspension.

So, she was in the wrong for shouting at the teacher and the teacher was being really unreasonable. She tried to explain but the teacher keep cutting her off and repeating the same thing over and over again. I guess that was what that pissed her off.

Oh wells, no one really liked that teacher anyway.

So…remember the guy that treated me to a movie and sushi? Yup, he message me saying something like “I want to get to know you more because I find that you are a really special and unique girl.”

I replied with “Right. *rolls eyes* whatever”

He was like “If you don’t believe me, its okay but my heart never lies about such things”

I didn’t reply him. I mean like…it started off nice knowing him and all…then he started messaging me EVERYDAY which got me rather annoyed so I didn’t reply some of his messages and he was like “Are you avoiding me?”

I didn’t reply him. Come on, what’s his problem? My phone bill isn’t going to be paid by god you know. My parents have to work HARD to earn money to pay phone bills and other stuff.

My horoscope said something like something something clash…don’t avoid it and other stuff. (freakily true) so I didn’t, I replied his message. That was a yesterday’s thing. The “Are you avoiding me?” part was yesterday night…when I was asleep.

Anywayz, he didn’t message me at all today and not that I care or anything but I think his mad at me.

The only reason why I’m annoyed by him is because I don’t like him, and he like me. Oh and there was this text message. “We can start off as friends” and I’m like WHAT THE FUCK?!?

We are ALREADY friends and we are STAYING as friends. Nothing more, nothing less. Just NORMAL FRIENDS.

It sometimes just makes me so mad. The one that should be telling me this, doesn’t tell. The one that should NOT be telling me this, tells.

WOW!!! MY LOVE LIFE IS JUST WONDERFUL ISN’T IT?!?!

*roll eyes*

Speaking of which…I wrote his name like 3 times on my test paper today…that last time I did that was like few months ago…before my friend told him that I liked him which I think he took it as a joke…

*ahem*

Anywayz, I’m off to try signing up for Holic AGAIN (tried that 5 times but it didn’t work)

Well…he was like “u sure i cant make u play holic?”

So yeah…I give in easily sometimes.

♥ Topic-less

I know. I know. I haven’t been updating. Well, my one week March holidays turned into a 2-3 days March holiday because my grandmother passed away and on top of everything, my parents just HAD TO BE OVERSEAS.

It’s like calling from one end to the other end and did I mention that the other end had a HORRBILBE reception AND to for the cherry on top of the cake. The receptionist at the hotel counter was like “halo halo halo halo”

What is she? A PARROT?!? Come on, here I am, upset and trying my best to notify everyone about my grandmother and here comes the receptionist who CANNOT understand English very well.

Sheese. Anywayz, I’m a Chinese so the funeral was obviously “Chinese styled” meaning the coffin was there. As much as I would like to see my grandmother for the last time, I dare not look into the coffin.

The monks came and chant…sprinkled “holy water” and made us walk around the coffin holding joss sticks and we WERE supposed to look into the coffin…one last look at her before she gets cremated. Well, I cried while walking pass it knowing that I’ll never get to visit her every Sunday though I use to find it a chore so much so that I actually got used to it. It was like a routine already and I am actually starting not to mind visiting her EVERY Sunday but now that she’s gone…I feel rather lost.

Anywayz, I’ve sort of gotten over it already. Yupps.

On the happier side of stuffs, I went with my friend and watch Step up 2; The streets. It was FANTASTIC I tell you! I swear, movies that feature break dancing or freestyle as you might call it ROCKS BIG TIME.

He is a pretty nice person, treated me to sushi and the movie and yes. He likes me but I DO NOT feel the same way for him. He can only be a friend and yeah…just a plain, ordinary friend.

Anywayz, did I mention that he actually bought me shower gel? Yes…SHOWER GEL. He forgot to pass it to me but that’s not the point. The point is…SHOWER GEL?!?!

*Faints*

I swear, he was like (text message) “Hey, I bought you something.” And I was like “What? Tell me??” and he went “You guess, I’ll give you a hint. It smells nice” and the first thought that came to my mind was perfume? And that was what I replied him. He said “No…it’s kinda weird but I didn’t know what to get you so I bought you shower gel.”

My mouth just happened to drop open.
All I replied was “lol”

Weird huh?

I haven’t been talking to him on msn lately…well, to be precise, it’s been like 1-2 months since I last chatted with him on messenger. Somehow, I had this urge of talking to him suddenly but then I remembered; time zones. It’s probably like 5am over there and even though his status is place as online, I think he’s asleep or something.

I actually double clicked and let the chat window pop up but I didn’t type anything. Just stared at the window and closed it…then I clicked on it again…and closed it and I decide to let it out here…

♥ My horoscope says…

Love: You’ve highly susceptible to crushes and you go around hiding secret feelings from the people around you. It’s OK to harbor feelings but don’t act rashly and make a fool out of yourself.

OMG!! How freaky is this?? I remember when I started liking him; it was something like “A cutie catches your eye”

*chews on nails*
Don’t act rashly so that means I should not just go up to him on MSN and say “I like you.”

But my friend already told him!! By the way, I pointed a knife to my friend’s neck and force the MSN conversation out of her. Ok…I’m kidding but I did get the conversation. It went something like this.

Friend: “She likes you.”
Him: “Lol Teri.”
Him: “Why isn’t she online?”
Friend: “She’s appearing offline.”
Him: Lololol. Why?”
Friend: “Because this is embarrassing.”
Him: “Lolol”
-End of convo-

Well, apparently, he went to the hospital because he had a flu and he hasn’t been online since Sunday morning. I’m a little worried about him. I mean like it’s just a flu…why do you need to go to the hospital??

Then again, he might be resting at home. =o

Anywayz, Callie shall not let a crush rule over her life.

School was BORING and it felt ridiculously long for some reason. Two periods of mother tongue was like sitting in an empty room with four walls surrounding you. Physics, well, we had a physics test and I think I flunked it. I didn’t have enough time to finish 6 marks worth of question.

Biology and social studies were the only interesting subjects I had. Social studies is supposed to be one of the most dreaded subjects but because the teacher was telling us stories in between the lesson, it got rather interesting.

As for biology, I learnt about genetics and I’m in love with it. I think I’m going to take a course that has to do with genetics when I get my GCE “O” Level certificate. If not, I’ll probably take up tourism because of the integrated resort that is coming up in Singapore by 2010. I would have graduate from the tourism course by 2011 so there will be plenty of job opportunities for me. I’ll be like a “hot potato” since I major in tourism which includes event management.

If I can’t get into both courses then maybe, I shall take up French Culinary or the culinary courses that they offer or maybe even biomedical which was supposed to be my first choice till I learnt about genetics today and no, it has nothing to do with him who is a biomedical student -_-”

♥ OH EMM GEE!!! *Hides under blanket*

As you can see, the “about me” section AKA Girl and Visitors section has been put up so click on it and enjoy the little thing I have for now. More to come soon.

Ok…My friend, Teri, TOLD HIM THAT I LIKE HIM!!! This is pure embarrassment I tell you. I’ve never felt so…so…shy and embarrassed in my whole entire life!! Luckily, he’s going off to the hospital (bio medical student) and I was appearing offline the whole time because of some irritating person and I’ll never hear the end of it if I block and delete the irritating person from my contact list.

So, should I be happy that she told him or should I be upset about it because he might not feel the same way about me. Call me stupid but yeah, 60% of my friends were people I met online including my ex boyfriend. Strange but true and I do have a social life…maybe it’s just that I talk more online, express more of my emotions online. Somehow, I like to blog then to tell someone face to face about my problem and troubles. Happiness is another thing =3

He’s currently away and I really don’t know how to face him or what to say if he talks to me when he gets back. I don’t want to run away but at the same time, I don’t know what to think. Is like….there isn’t a word invented yet for the emotion I’m feeling right now. Unexplainable I guess.

Wonder what will he say when he gets back. I think I shall ask Teri to be the middleman or middle-woman for that matter unless he decides to talk to me since Teri already told him I’m appearing offline. What if he says something like “Er…sorry but I don’t really like you” or even worst. He might just delete me from his contact list!!

*slaps self* Callie…you think too much.

Ok. I’m thinking too much. End of story.

♥ I think I’m in love….

I started liking him in 2007, December when I first talked to him. I thought it was just a fling or just a sudden craze that will go away but it didn’t. I continued to like him. He got a girlfriend and I got jealous when I heard about it. I was rather happy when they broke up.

Sadly, he is in the other end of the world. Somewhere in the United Nations while I am here in Singapore. I met him online. I feel really stupid for liking him. I’m only 16 and he’s 17. I dare not tell him that I like him because what if he doesn’t feel the same? So maybe I guessed that he likes me because of some rather awkward msn conversations like there was one when he asked my friend “What kind of guys does Eve likes??” (btw, they know me as Evangeline because of some role playing thingy and stuff) and on msn, his personal message was “I will try and change for you.”

Tell me that I’m thinking too much and here’s another one. I was like “acting” in front of him so I said “Teri says that you like me!! Tell her that she is wrong!!” and he went “What if she isn’t?”

I didn’t expect it to come. I was expecting something like “lol. I’ll tell her” or “Haha. You’ve got to be kidding me” or something like that but NOOOOO.

I didn’t know what to say or type for that matter so I went “…” and he was like “Hey, I’m just asking you know” and I was like “Hahas.” And I changed the topic.

I’m dying to ask him if he likes me but I don’t know how I should put it. I don’t want him to think that I’m all weird and stuff nor do I want to spoil the friendship we have. What should I do??

My friend, Teri, asked me if I still like him. I didn’t reply her because if I say yes, will she tell him? I mean like it would be all awkward between us if he just treats me like a little sister or a friend.

I really don’t know what to do.

♥ Grand opening + tributes.

I now pronounce Vintage Vanity officially opened!! Anywayz, some parts of the site are still not completed and I promise that they will be up by the end of this week or starting of next week depending on the amount of work I have.

See the title of this post? “Grand opening + tributes.” Why tributes?? Tributes to who?

Well, it’s for a girl that passed away recently. She’s in secondary one which means she 13 this year. She got into a hit and run accident of Valentine’s Day and died on Sunday, 5.15pm. Her class went to visit her on Sunday.

She’s from my sister’s secondary school and an ex MCS girl so she’s counted as my junior because I came from MCS too. I heard that she was an only child. It’s rather sad I mean like she’s only 13. I repeat THRITEEN only. She still has a long way to go, so many unfinished things to do yet, she will never be able to finish it.

Somehow, I felt that she was waiting. Waiting for her class to go and visit her for one last time. Waiting to hear her friends’ voice again before she left this planet. The driver has not been found yet. That driver deserved to be sent to hell. How can he even sleep at night after knocking down some poor girl? Does he have a conscience?

I pity the girl’s parents and her close friends. It’s the living one that suffers for the dead. That driver will pay for all the suffering that he/she have caused. I heard from my sister that yesterday, I girl was hugging on to her mum and crying out the girl’s name over and over again. She must have been the deceased close friend or something. Hearing it from my sister breaks my heart. I can almost imagine it happening in front of me. Like I was watching her friends in the school hall crying for her.

She wasn’t some superstar like Lydia Shum nor Singapore’s MC King who both passed away not too long ago. Lydia Shum passed away yesterday at the age of 60.

HONG KONG (AFP) — Veteran Hong Kong entertainer Lydia Shum died Tuesday aged 60 after a battle with liver cancer, her employer and local media said.
Shum, known for her bouffant hairstyle and wing-tip frame glasses, was one of Hong Kong’s most popular actresses and comediennes with a career spanning more than four decades.
Affectionately nicknamed by her fans “Fei Fei” which means “fat” in Cantonese because of her plump physique, Shum won over audiences not only in Hong Kong but in mainland China and Chinese communities around the world.
Shum had been undergoing medical treatment since being diagnosed with the disease more than a year ago.
But in recent weeks, her health had worsened and she was moved into intensive care at Queen Mary Hospital where she passed away, Hong Kong media reported.
Her 21-year-old daughter Joyce Cheng arrived in the hospital but would not speak to the media.
“We can confirm she has died,” said Winnie Ho, a spokeswoman for her employer, local television station TVB.
Leading figures in Hong Hong, including the city’s chief executive Donald Tsang, paid tribute to the respected entertainer.
“I feel very sad about her death. Fei Fei is Hong Kong’s ‘happy fruit’. Hong Kong people have grown up with her laughter and she had brought a lot of happiness to us,” Tsang said.
“On behalf of the government and Hong Kong citizens, I would like to pay condolences to her family.”
Born in Shanghai in 1947, Shum took up acting as a child in the early 60s and quickly became popular thanks to her high spirit and sense of humour.
She went on to star in more than 70 movies, according to Internet Movie Database, and later hosted numerous variety shows produced by TVB, most notably the popular “Enjoy Yourself Tonight.”
The actress is survived by Joyce Cheng and her former husband — actor and singer Adam Cheng Siu-chow.
Source taken from http://afp.google.com/article/ALeqM5iHgTeK1nTGnb1rwixaPnwss0NpaQ

As I was saying, she wasn’t some superstar and neither was she some well known figure for academic results and all but she was a human. A human with parents and friends. A person with love, hate, care and all the other emotions that any one of us would have. Yet now, she won’t be seen ever again. Her laughter and memories will just become a distant memory and to some of us, she will just be this little hole in our hearts that will still ache when we think about her.

I pray for her. May she rest in peace.

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